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Thursday, February 7, 2008
actually, i wanna post this during the first day of the new year but lot of things coming up so i'm quite busy to blogging. anyway....
i know "you" will be reading this post so i hope you'll be reading it till the end.
i wanna apologised to you for all what i've done. i know that i'm so clumsy most of the times, rushing things everytime i get nervous especially in "that" kind of thing. i'm still searching for an answer for all of this things happened to me. i felt so blessed that i knew you. to be honest, sometimes i do feel regret of knowing you in the first place and i felt that we should meet each other in the very different time and place. but it happened already so we can't changed it.
although we're not that close and not knowing each other that well, i can feel that you're a good friend and cool to be hanging out with. i felt that i'm lucky for having such a good friend like you in my life. i should knew it from the start that you will gonna treat me just as a friend. but the problem her is that i'm so into you and i can't control my feelings towards you. my feelings towards you started to grow since the day i can't remember. i just can't stop thinking about you till today. i don't know what had happened to me. i know we didn't talked or had some chat a lot, it's because that i'm scared (+ a lil bit of shy) of something. i'm scared to make the first move. i'm scared you'll reject me and say the "N" word. i'm still hoping for some miracle to happen to me, only time can tell. i'm still happy for all that i did. thank you for everything...XD
there will be never a right time to say goodbye to you...Labels: post
